Friday, March 19, 2010

Gradual Growth

Several weeks ago I pulled out an unfinished maternity dress. I'd nearly completed it when I was pregnant with Tristan. However, something was wrong with the back skirt, making it unfit to wear. I'd given up on it, completely frustrated at what I considered a waste of time and money. Now, two years later, as I ripped apart the skirt in search of a solution, the problem was obvious and easily fixed.


Slowly, imperceptibly to me, I’ve grown as a seamstress. Time spent sewing simple aprons as gifts for friends, curtains for the kitchen, and several easy dresses for myself improved my skills. What was hard two years ago is easy today.


So life goes, full of gradual growth. A kind word spoken when I’d rather snap, an invitation accepted when I’d rather stay home, a sacrifice made when I’d rather be selfish, a lesson taught when I’d rather just listen; all these and more work to grow my character in small ways. The ordinary days grow me in ways I can’t see at the time.


My friend, Sister Eva, said to me “Carla, Christ is growing and being formed in you, just as that baby is growing up inside of you.” I can’t see the baby’s growth with my eyes. My belly gradually swells. I feel more movement from the child. Change comes slowly. But miraculous growth happens daily.


Even so Christ grows within me. “Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.” “That Christ may grow in your hearts by faith.” The baby growing inside isn’t the only miracle gradually growing and changing me. These ordinary days of worship, work and relationships yield more of the fullness of God in me, as I listen to His Spirit.


The dress, representing growth in myself and veiling the growth of my my baby.


Geryll listens to Tristan talk about the twinkling stars, an ordinary moment with extraordinary glory.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

What Matters Most



"We can do no great things, only small things with great love." ~ Mother Teresa.

My mother-in-law modeled this for me today as she stopped by to pick something up, then ended up helping Tristan build his first snowman in the back yard. (Notice how she is clapping her hands in praise of him). Too often I find myself too busy doing "big" things to stop and do the little things. As Shane Claiborne says, "It's easy to fall in love with the great things . . . .We can so easily become driven by our vision for church growth or community or social justice that we forget those little things like caring for those around us."

It won't be long before my son knows stress and worry as he faces life's battles. For now, he plays. He delights in his world. He trusts his daddy and mama. What a beautiful season of life for him. May I as his mama not miss it because I was too busy trying to "do things that count".



After she left we carried snowballs to the sunny front yard and built a snowman. By the end of the day there was a small ball left. If I'd just make enough snowmen I could clean all that snow out of the backyard :)